D-Day

So yesterday was my last day of work and it was quite uneventful, in a good way of course. All I did was just stick working paper and did some minor indexing the whole day and it was awesome. It wasn't even sad when I left. Maybe because I'm just so done with the company already. And the people who were in the office during my last day were mostly the ones I didn't really liked so that would probably explain why I didn't feel a thing stepping out of the office for the last time.

The farewell was quite ok I guess? The food was nice and the ones who I wanted to be there were there so everything was fine? It was a bit restrictive though because during my "speech" I really wanted to just lash out on Leader senpai for denying me of my 5 days leave but I decided against it. I'm still very angry about it but nothing can be done about it already

T Minus 1 Day

Well guys, I finally made it out of that stupid milk powder company. Finally! After a whole month there I'm so ready to be done with it and senpai. So done with the two of them. Now I'm back in the office, just chilling and doing some admin work. This is the ideal was to spend the last couple of days. This is great. There's so much improvement in my mood and I think it's pretty obvious judging by the change in tone for this post as compared to the 3 before this.

Today has been a pretty slow day. There aren't a lot of people in the office today, I'm the only girl on my island. Lunch was awesome! We went for Japanese and it took us about 1.5 hours and it felt so good! God knows when's the next time I'm gonna be able to have lunch that long. 

There isn't much to say today seeing how I'm in a good mood. I guess a person really does rant more when they're in a bad mood. Don't get me wrong, what I said in the last three days I do mean them. I'm still super salty and angry at the fact that they wasted my 5-day holiday. I'm still pissed beyond pissed about that. But that anger is now being kept under control because no.1. I'm not in that stupid milk powder company anymore and no.2. I don't have to look at senpai's face for two whole days, or at least until the farewell dinner tomorrow night.

T Minus 2 Days

Well, the situation here has not improved. Senpai continues to annoy me questions that is both redundant and out of scope. Just because she wants to satisfy her curiousity she pushes things to me to find out. Best part is, those information isn't even required for our work scope. In short, she wants to be a good auditor and wants to be so detailed and complete it is pissing me off.

For our work here, we have a guideline that states what we need to do, what we need to get and what we need to ask. If the things that she asks me to do is within the guidelines, fine, I have no complains. But those that are out of it? Boy am I pissed. It's annoying to keep calling the same person every single day asking a few questions and then hanging up the phone. She can't even have the decency to give the questions in one go. Every single time I submit that same paperwork, she gives back new questions and I am pissed as fuck.

For a person who is pressed for time, she sure doesn't know how to cut corners and take the short-cut. What? She wants to make a good impression to the bosses here and to our boss? Or is she really that rigid and unflexible that she really cannot just overlook this one small detail and just close the case? I know..I know..one small detail can mean the difference in everything but when that detail is not required by the guidelines, I'd say fuck it and close case. That's what I'd do. 

This is really not how I had planned to spend my last few days in this company. I wanted to spend it carefree and happy while sitting in my corner back at our office. Not being held hostage in this milk powder company being somebody else's slave. Senpai is letting me go back to office for my last two days and I hate the fact that she has to "let" me go back. Like what? I'm her slave now? She owns me? She has to "let" me go? I cannot resign without her say so? BULLSHIT. 

I get that you have a lot of work to do, I really do understand that. But keeping your colleague here when you know clearly she wants to go and could've gone off FIVE DAYS EARLIER, you fucking LET her go. To hell with "I have a lot of work to do. I don't have enough time. I need help". Do you think I care? I want out. I've made it very clear since the very beginning of this assignment 2 years ago that I don't like this place. Every single year I've been complaining about this milk powder assignment and you were there all those times. You can't even be a little bit human and tell our boss to approve my leave application? Bullocks.

You know what. I don't think I'll cry on Friday. I'm just so done with this place. That woman robbed me 5 days of holiday and I am done. At this point, I'm not even sad that I'm leaving. I'm just so glad. So happy to finally leave that god forsaken place, to never see that stupid milk powder company again and to never have her as my senior again. 

T Minus 3 Days

So today is my 4th last day working, so meaning I have 3 more days to go: Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and while things seems to be all fine and dandy before lunch, I'm really dreading this job as the day stretches out.

For one thing, Leader senpai continues to irritate and annoy me with work related matters. Things that she can very well solve on her own but she insist on keeping me here to take care of them for her. It doesn't take more than a phone call to solve them and yet I have to do it for her. She even has the guts to tell me that the questions that she asked were those she really did not have the answer to and I need to ask the client about it. 

Excuse me? Who's the senior here? Who's the original person in charge here? Definitely not me. No siree. This is pissing me off as well. It feels like I'm here to pick up after her. Wtf is this? She's my senior for crying out loud and she can't do these on her own? I'm not even suppose to be here in the first place. I'm only here because she couldn't finish her work and needed back-up. How dare she make it sound like I'm the one slacking when she was the one who couldn't cope with the work in the first place.

And another thing - she has picked up an annoying habit of texting work related things. "Can you do this this this? Thx" "Can you get that that that? Thx" "Come see me when you reach. Thx" "Ask that person for the info. Thx"

Thx thx thx. Thx your head la thx thx thx -.-

When you see it too often it gets annoying especially when used in a context you hate the most. In this case, it's because it's work related and more importantly, the work is related to the blasted milk power company where I'm currently being held hostage at. It really does feel like I'm a hostage here because no.1. held here against my will, no.2. not allowed to leave this case until she says so. How is it any different from being held hostage? Anyway I'm getting off point. The point is -  is it that much to ask for a person to email to talk about work related things instead of whatsapp? It's not too much to ask now, is it? I'm seriously considering not giving her a byebye note like the one I gave Clover senpai.

Leader senpai, while she is a good friend, I can't stand her as a colleague. Why? Because she's too robotic about work. Everything is standardised and she is too rigid. No room for flexibility whatsoever. It is either her way or if you don't do things her way, she will issue you something called Review Points and you will die answering them. Review points are basically a long list of questions asking you "WHY DIDN'T YOU DO THE THING?". 

They say that you can learn a lot by being in her team. I beg to differ. The only thing I've learnt from her is that I hate her way of working. There's no flexibility, there's no fun and there is no room for self growth. All you do is follow her method until it's ingrained in your head until it's almost second nature to you. Is that personal growth? No, I don't classify it as personal growth. But in a robotic sense maybe yeah, growth - you become more and more robotic. Isn't that great? 

T Minus 4 days

It is now down to 4 days before I officially leave this job and I, for one, am already so done with the job.  It's not so much of "oh I'm tired" but more of a "I'm getting really pissed because my last working day could've been last Friday!"

I was put into the stupid milk powder company again to assist a senior of mine, we shall refer to her as Leader Senpai, because she couldn't finish her work in the allocated time. So I was brought in to help her with one of the areas to audit. And when I told her of wanting to go off early she said something along the lines of "dream on. Like I'll ever let you go off early". And this is pissing me off more and more as the days go by leading up to my last day of work.

She keeps consoling me with "you're going to be paid for the extra days you're here anyway." and truth be told, it's not working. Firstly, the fact that she told me that shows that she really doesn't understand me. It's not so much about the money but more about the wasted annual leaves I've worked so hard to earn. It's more about the rest days, not the money I get for throwing those rest days out. I'm an intrinsic person, you cannot buy me over with material things.

That's basically the main reason why I'm pissed beyond reason. I thought she was my friend because if I were in her shoes, I would let my friend go and have a well-deserved holiday after working for this blasted place for 3 years. Let them go off and enjoy themselves before they have to start work again. I guess I overestimated her ability to be human. She's too focused on her work that she has failed to realise that keeping a person from her holiday is the worse thing you can do, both to a friend and to a colleague. 

She has asked me a few times when do I want to go off. I implied that I knew she wouldn't be so kind as to let me go early but I guess she didn't get the hint. But ya know, if a person repeatedly tells you that she wants to go off early but doesn't really mind staying back, you know that she actually does mind staying back, very much if I may add.

So yea, that's all for the update today. I can't wait till I get to go back to the office. It'll feel like a furlough for sure because I feel like I'm a prisoner here, what with being held back here against my will and all. 

To the future!!!

It’s been a long while hasn’t it? I’m sorry. Work got really crazy and I just lost all motivation and time to even post something. Twitter is a better place because it’s a micro blogging place, I don’t have to string a huge passage together for it to be considered a “post”.

As some of you might know, I resigned from my current workplace. It’s been my only job so far and while I love my work family, I can’t stay any longer. There’s no future here because this is not something I’d want to do in the long run. This is a dead end for me and I have to get out of here while there’s still a good chance for a u-turn.

I’ve already drafted a few goodbye notes, writing them wasn’t exactly fun because I don’t know what to say other than thanking them over and over again and being overly dramatic with lines like “I don’t deserve such good seniors like you guys and probably never will even in a hundred lifetimes”. So yea..I have managed to finish for the girls. For the boys..hmm maybe not lols