2k18 so far

Hello, it’s been a while. I’m sorry for leaving this place for so long. 2018 has been quite interesting so far, if I can say so myself. 

If you’re wondering if it’s because I changed jobs or anything, it’s not. It’s interesting kpop-wise I guess? For starters, my darling Kim Taeyeon had a performance here earlier this year and it was my first time seeing her perform as a solo artist and boy oh boy was she good!!! She sounds just like the CD if you can believe it. Another group I liked came and perform at the same event, too! Mamamoo! But our dork leader Kim Yongsun somehow sprained her back during rehearsals and was chained to her chair the entire performance. The other three members looked so lost on the stage as their Yongsun unnie was not with them. Super Junior was here too at the same event and while I’m not a huge fan of theirs..when Sorry Sorry starts playing, you start yelling SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!!!!!!! I don’t make the rules.

I also got a new phone! After years of using an android phone, I finally changed to an iphone and I gotta say, eight months in and I am loving it a lot. I definitely see what all the fuss is about for this brand’s phones. It’s really nice to use and daaamn the camera on this thing? I am in love! My selca game has improved a lot because i’ve been taking selcas so often because the front camera is sofa king good! Like oh my goodness have you seen front cameras that good? Never. It’s just that good, I’m tellin ya. It’s also really smooth but what new phone isn’t, am I right guys? I guess eight months in it’s not as smooth as it was when I first got it? But it’s still nowhere as frustrating as eight months in with an android phone. My only problem now is that my cloud storage is running out of space so I can’t backup my data anymore and I’m not too sure about subscribing to additional space. It’s not that it’s expensive, I just don’t see the need to do it yet. Maybe in the future I will.

OH! I’ve also retaken that 16 personalities test thing recently and I’m no longer an INFP (The Mediator) DDDD: 

THE HORROR

I’m now an ISFP (The Adventurer) and while I still don’t know how to feel about this change yet, I did read the description of an adventurer and apparently this type of people would say something along the lines of “Don’t box me in!” and I think that fits me quite well. I did send some snippets of the description to my friends and they said it was spot on so I guess I’m an adventurer now haha no longer am i a mediator. I’m quite sad about this but I suppose people change as they grow.

My 2017

2017 has come and gone in a blink of an eye, I would say. It felt like it was just yesterday my company was having its annual stock count and here we are again, two weeks away from our annual stock count. Time went by so fast it scares me every now and then.

If I were to sum up 2017, it would be the year I returned to K-pop. As I’ve mentioned before in previous posts, I’ve gotten into 2 new fandoms this year and that is something I almost never do. I’ve been a SONE for so long that i’ve forgotten what it was like to get into a new fandom and experience getting to know the idols, like what I had done with the members of SNSD. It’s similar to falling in love, really.

I also had my first vacation in 2 years this year! To the land of the rising sun, my childhood dream destination. Although I went with the wrong person, it was still pretty enjoyable. I mean, I got to experience what’s it like living in Japan for a week and that was really cool. I felt so at home there and I was able to put my limited Japanese to good use. I was really proud of myself when I successfully ordered a meal at McDonald’s, even got the terms right! (In Japan they don’t say “fries” they say “potato” instead and I learnt that from all the animes I’ve watched).It was truly the only place where I felt at home.

Also in 2017, I got to see one of my favourite people twice! Jessica had come to our country for a visit (thrice actually but I missed the last one because of my trip) and I got to see her! It was so surreal like she’s just so ethereal you had to pinch yourself to see if you’re dreaming. She’s absolutely beautiful and such a kind, gentle soul. I hope 2018 treats her well.

I’ve also made a bunch of new fandom friends this year! It’s been a long time since I’ve made any new fandom friends since..ya know..never gotten into a new fandom after SNSD. they’re really nice people and all though we don’t talk very often, we still ask how are each other doing once in a while and that’s nice. Really nice.

So that’s probably a wrap? Haha there are still about 2 to 3 weeks left in 2017 though. May these last couple of weeks treat you well.

Oh and speaking of wraps, this is my Spotify 2017 Wrap lol seems legit. Summed up my year quite well.

Stories

It's been a while, hasn't it? I'm sorry I didn't mean to. Life just got away from me and things are pretty mundane now. I know right? Mundane? Then you should update more! How dare you leave this place unattended for almost half a year.

Well then, let me get you up to speed with what has happened recently.

One of the biggest things, I can say, is that I've started writing again. Stories, I mean. I've started to write stories again. I recently made a new friend on twitter and she's a writer herself, having written some stories a fandom that I'm currently in. So yea, long story short, she sort of encouraged me to pick it back up and it was really nice. Like, I've never had anybody encourage me to write before. Well there was that one time where Endymion was like "you do it for yourself" when i asked who am I doing this for because the friend that i supposedly wrote stories for didn't bother to leave comments and I get dishearten to write most of the time. So yea, he told me to "write for myself" and while that comment worked for a while, it doesn't keep a pessimistic person like me going for a long time.

The middle of last year I put up one of my old drafts on a popular fic site and it was quite well received. My audience base is very small, being a no-name writer and all, but there were some feedback and I was quite happy with it. It gave me a confidence boost. But it still doesn't mean anything because that piece of work was written years ago. I haven't written anything substantial in the recent years.

A few days ago I brought out another old draft but rewrote almost 60% of it. I wasn't very confident in it but my new friend said that it was good and it fucked her up (it was a tragedy) for quite a few hours. I got a bit of my confidence back because it was something that I had just written, even though the idea was from an old draft but I basically renovated the entire thing to fit the current fandom I've written it for.

So yea, feedback is really important. I didn't even get a single comment from when I was posting my stories here. It was really discouraging.

The Fish Tank

What am I doing with my life?

A question I find myself asking rather frequently these days. I'm at another standstill, hit another wall, stuck in another fish tank, one can say. Everyday is the same, mundane routine which I've grown accustomed to and yet, I make no effort to change it in the slightest way possible. Am I content with this routine? No, I would think not. While everything in my life seems to be under control, sometimes I wish it wasn't.

I've been playing it safe since I could remember. Choosing the safe route in everything that I've encountered so far. Safe is good, safe means that I will never have to be outside my comfort zone. When you're a small town girl trying to make it in a decent-sized city, your comfort zone is all you have. And yet, there will be times where I wish I hadn't. Safe also meant the same boring choices that even my friends could predict before I even make up my mind. I should be thankful that I have such observant friends who knows my quirks but I'm also disheartened that I've become such an easy person to read.

While my friends are all out there exploring the world I find myself being stuck in my own bubble. Jealousy rears its ugly head every now and then but it goes as quickly as it comes. I'm not one for such petty feelings because I have better things to do. An example of such would be surfing the web, catching up with my online friends and favourite people who don't know I exist. As pathetic as it sounds, it's comforting.

In a typical day, I wake up for work, have a quick breakfast while either surfing the Net (a leftover habit from my Uni days which I have yet to break) and then drive out to work. After some dilly-dallying the work day starts and I keep myself busy until lunch. Lunch is always a simple affair, we either order in, cook noodles or have white porridge with salted eggs. A boring combination even for a boring person such as myself but my colleagues are thrifty so I just go along with them. Lunches like these help me save money, too, so I don't complain. 

Work ends a few hours after lunch and while I was quite afraid to go home on time at first, I do it in a heartbeat these days because work has become mundane and there was no point in sticking around, unless it's for gossiping but it rarely happens with me. My colleagues will talk among themselves once our superiors have all gone home, I would be at my seat debating whether or not it is a suitable time to go home.

When I'm home, I get ready to cook dinner. Dinner is also a simple affair of either fried noodles or fried rice or sometimes even pasta. Dinners by myself allow me to recharge after an entire day of dealing with people. Such an introverted habit coming from a person who seems like an extrovert. Contrary to popular belief, I'm only extroverted when I absolutely have to. Most times, I'm perfectly happy being left alone to my own devices. 

Work has been uninspiring as of late and my useless boss is slowly getting on my nerves by frequently asking me to do things using the reason "I want you to learn." I, for one, would like to know what can I possibly learn from analysing the bloody expenses account every single month just because our big (also useless imho) boss doesn't know why our company's general expenses is increasing. Infuriating, is it not? To know that people who have been working in that company for more than 10 years are not in-tuned with what is going on in their expenses account. Some finance manager and director they are. From what I've seen, they only know how to get their subordinates to do their work for them while they bark instructions. I'm definitely not sticking around this company for long. Another couple of years and I'll want out, even if I already want to now.

A boring lifestyle befitting a boring person, I would say. Perhaps I've been gaming too much lately that I've been treating my life as an open-world game. Everyday I would leave my home on a "daily mission" in which my reward would be Experience Points (XP), cash, food and sleep, all in which I can enjoy when I come home at the end of the day. It generally helps in passing time, treating everything as though they were game missions and side quests to fulfill in order to complete the entire game we call Life. I've also tried going to work happily instead of "just going to work". It was in an interview with one of my current obsessions that she mentioned her changing her perspective of "going to work" and has started to enjoy working better. As her fan I would agree because she seems brighter now compared to last year or so. That method doesn't always work for me but I do try it.

When life seems to be at a standstill, keep moving even if it's the same steps you take every day. Circle your fish tank over and over, it beats standing still anyway.

Coming Home to Radishes and Red Velvet

I’ve been a kpop fan for about 8 years now and one can say that nothing makes me more at home than when I’m watching something kpop related, especially if it has anything to do with my favourite groups. Over the years, I’ve been fairly consistent with the groups I like. Anybody who knows me well can automatically tell that my favourite group ever is Girls’ Generation and my favourite members are Taeyeon and Jessica. My late high school and university life was spent fangirling about Girls’ Generation and other groups that I’ve come to like - f(x), SHINee, TVXQ and a little bit of EXO towards the end of my uni life.

You can say that that was how I would spend my days. I’d listen to their songs, watch their music videos, variety shows and even their dramas if they acted in any. Fanfics was one of the things that I’ve come to love because some of them are just so good and it’s amazing how these independent authors are just putting out these mindblowing stories for free. However, fangirling life tonned down by a lot after I started work. It was always work, work, work and if I had free time, I’d prefer to just sit quietly in my room and browse tumblr because that would be less energy taxing compared to having to sit through an entire episode of something. I just simply didn’t have the drive anymore.

Things got even worse after 930 (the SONE fandom equivalent of 911, the day peace and harmony shattered in our fandom and all hell broke loose). Kpop was just something I didn’t consciously kept up with anymore, instead I found myself rewatching old videos because they hurt less. Little by little, I lost touch with the fandom in which I called my home since I was in form 5. It was sad but unavoidable. I call myself a part-time/half retired fan now because I simply don’t have the heart and energy to keep up with them 100% anymore. This applied to all the groups I was in to that time. I slowly let them slip and only kept up with some of the new music they released.

In between I started watching western dramas that everybody seemed to be getting into. I watched all sorts of series like Orange is the New Black, Faking It, Supergirl, Agent Carter, Nikita, Friends, Ally McBeal, Riverdale etc etc. Some I finished, some I didn’t. I also went back to my roots and watched anime, my ultimate home.

Now, approximately 2 years later, I’m back! It started earlier this year when a few of my friends wanted me to check out this girl group called Mamamoo because they were just crazy talented and  hyper af. I checked them out and man I fell for them. It took a while but I fell for them completely. Their songs were catchy, the members are hella amazing and their group chemistry is just unmatched. I found myself sitting in front of the tv each night during dinners watching their videos, catching up on their variety shows appearance in the last three years and also catching up on their music. It was such a familiar feeling that I never thought I’d experience again.

A few weeks ago it happened again. I befriended this girl on tumblr and she was in to Red Velvet and I should give them a go. Didn’t really put much thought into it until one day I saw somebody link a gif of Red Velvet’s leader getting the shock of her life when one of her members crept up behind her and patted her butt. I linked it to my friend and she lost it. According to her, it was funny because the leader does that to her members all the time. The leader even has a favourite butt.

That phrase hit very close to home because my darling favourite, Taeyeon, too has a habit of patting her members’ bottom and she also has a favourite butt among her members. The very first thing I googled was to see some of the compilation clips of Red Velvet’s leader and butt patting. It all spiraled down from there. These past couple of weeks was basically also trying to catch up on 3 years worth of Red Velvet and I’m loving them so much right now. They remind me so much of Girls’ Generation it was almost like they were the mini version of the girl group that helped me through so many phases of my life.

Every day I look forward to watching or rewatching something of theirs. The thought of being able to go home and sit in front of the tv and watch them is so comforting and exciting! It’s almost like coming home again after a long, hard time. My friend says I found my safe space and yeah it really does feel like it. “blinded by love” she calls it when I said one of the members do resemble a bear.

So yea, this is just an update on what I’m up to lately. I’m on twitter more than I am here because to actually sit down and type up a substantial post is quite taxing especially when words just don’t seem to want to flow freely as you type.

Till the next post!

Remembering the Little Things

My new friend told me that when I named 3 of the 4 kpop groups she was currently going head over heels over. In all honesty, it wasn’t that difficult. We follow each other on tumblr and I can see everything that she reblogs, read her spazz in the tags and everything. It’s not difficult to remember.

In any sort of relationship, I think that it’s important to show the other parties that you care about what they’re telling you. This is how the relationship is built. When somebody is telling you something - be it about their mundane daily routine or their hobbies - they’re telling you information about themselves and quite frankly, they expect them to be remembered on the least bit. I feel that it’s important to remember because it shows that you’re putting in an effort in the relationship and it’s not entirely one sided.

I’ve had a friend who has asked me over and over on separate occasion how old I was. She then shrugs it off with “oh..you know..I have bad memory”. It was ok the first two times but after that it gets a bit annoying. I’m not sure if she was doing it on purpose because “it’s her thing to be bad at remembering” or she simply doesn’t remembers. Wouldn’t you feel bad if somebody just wouldn’t remember something simple that you’ve told them for about four to five times, maybe. It feels really bad because you’ll feel like nobody is paying attention to what you’re saying and that what you’re saying doesn’t matter to them. And that feeling sucks.

The act of remembering little details goes a long way. It makes the other party feels appreciated and it helps with your relationship. It doesn’t hurt to try and remember. It just takes that little bit of effort.

Life at the moment

Sometimes my name sounds foreign to me. Like who is that person? Who is this girl called Zhi? Why does it sound so familiar? It does take some time before I realize “oh hey! That’s my name!” I don’t know why that happens but it does. Once in a while, I get stumped for a little while thinking who are they referring to.

It’s weird, I know but hey! I’m weird to begin with so it’s nothing new.

This blog has been pretty dead hasn’t it? Since I resigned about 3 months ago, I’ve rarely posted anything anymore. That’s because I’m not as bored as I used to be. While I still live alone, in a sense, I’m not as bored.

For starters I bought my very first game console! Much yes! After so many years of playing it on my cousin brothers’ PS1, I finally have my very own playstation console and it is so beautiful. It cost a bomb but so worth it. I finally get around playing my favourite games from watching youtubers play them – Until Dawn, Tomb Raider and Rise of the Tomb Raider! Needless to say, Lara Croft is my new obsession. She is a precious bb who deserves the world and needs a break. Also I’m un-officially renaming Sam from Until Dawn to Sam Sam because everything sounds cuter when you say it twice. 

I also have internet! Oh my goodness it feels so good to have wifi at home you have no idea. I’ve been wifiless (Microsoft Word’s dictionary corrected it to wifeless but that’s also true lolololol) since I moved out from my internship dorm and that was like in early 2014 and it’s now early 2017. It’s been 3 years my goodness. How did I survive 3 years without internet at home?! Well, when you work in a very laid back office like where I was, it’s not so bad because my then-boss didn’t really mind us abusing his internet. As long as we get our work done on time, he doesn’t care what we do. That’s his concept.

Also I have more free time now! I’m even writing again, or attempting to write again. Guys I have no idea how did I write all those fics last time but I’m working on it. I’ve posted a couple but they were like my old stories but edited to fit the fandom like changing the names and some details etc.

I’ve also taken up jogging. I know, I know. I use to be so anti-jogging but now things have changed. If this were a novel, it would be described as character growth. I used to be like ugh I hate jogging, it’s lame and boring

                                

But now, it’s kinda fun especially when you are able to just keep going and not getting punctured so soon. Not to brag but I can like go up to 3km without stopping at a pace of 9’39”/km (I don’t actually know how fast is that but it’s really slow imho lol). So yea, jogging is pretty fun now that I have the stamina for it. Not sure what possessed me but I’ve also registered for a 10km marathon sometime in May with Anna. She sort of convinced me and this is a good chance to tick and item off my bucket list.

That’s it for now. Till next time!

HEY! YOU!

Yeah, you!
Look at you!
My, how you've grown. I can hardly recognise you anymore.
Where is that chubby little cutie I knew?
I'm not sure where she is but she's gone I guess?
And replaced by this cheap, ugly robot!
Nah, i'm kidding.
The little cutie has grown into a very fine young lady.
Ain't you quite the sight?!
All grown up and ready to take on the world!
In fact, ain't you already taking on the world?
Taking the world by storm I'm sure!
The world ain't ready for your awesomeness so do us a favour and try not to overload us with it, shall we?
I dont think the world can handle it.
Not just yet.
The fact that the world had exactly 24 years to prepare and it's still not ready?
Mm mmm mmm mmm mmm
/shakes head/
That's right, folks!
Cz this person right here is the birthday girl!!
Let's show the girl some love!
/crowd cheers/
RACHEL! RACHEL! RACHEL! YOU'RE AMAZIIIIIING!!!

Happy birthday, dear. You get out there and show everyone who's boss. Because I know you and I know that you are going to do extrodinary things.

D-Day

So yesterday was my last day of work and it was quite uneventful, in a good way of course. All I did was just stick working paper and did some minor indexing the whole day and it was awesome. It wasn't even sad when I left. Maybe because I'm just so done with the company already. And the people who were in the office during my last day were mostly the ones I didn't really liked so that would probably explain why I didn't feel a thing stepping out of the office for the last time.

The farewell was quite ok I guess? The food was nice and the ones who I wanted to be there were there so everything was fine? It was a bit restrictive though because during my "speech" I really wanted to just lash out on Leader senpai for denying me of my 5 days leave but I decided against it. I'm still very angry about it but nothing can be done about it already

T Minus 1 Day

Well guys, I finally made it out of that stupid milk powder company. Finally! After a whole month there I'm so ready to be done with it and senpai. So done with the two of them. Now I'm back in the office, just chilling and doing some admin work. This is the ideal was to spend the last couple of days. This is great. There's so much improvement in my mood and I think it's pretty obvious judging by the change in tone for this post as compared to the 3 before this.

Today has been a pretty slow day. There aren't a lot of people in the office today, I'm the only girl on my island. Lunch was awesome! We went for Japanese and it took us about 1.5 hours and it felt so good! God knows when's the next time I'm gonna be able to have lunch that long. 

There isn't much to say today seeing how I'm in a good mood. I guess a person really does rant more when they're in a bad mood. Don't get me wrong, what I said in the last three days I do mean them. I'm still super salty and angry at the fact that they wasted my 5-day holiday. I'm still pissed beyond pissed about that. But that anger is now being kept under control because no.1. I'm not in that stupid milk powder company anymore and no.2. I don't have to look at senpai's face for two whole days, or at least until the farewell dinner tomorrow night.

T Minus 2 Days

Well, the situation here has not improved. Senpai continues to annoy me questions that is both redundant and out of scope. Just because she wants to satisfy her curiousity she pushes things to me to find out. Best part is, those information isn't even required for our work scope. In short, she wants to be a good auditor and wants to be so detailed and complete it is pissing me off.

For our work here, we have a guideline that states what we need to do, what we need to get and what we need to ask. If the things that she asks me to do is within the guidelines, fine, I have no complains. But those that are out of it? Boy am I pissed. It's annoying to keep calling the same person every single day asking a few questions and then hanging up the phone. She can't even have the decency to give the questions in one go. Every single time I submit that same paperwork, she gives back new questions and I am pissed as fuck.

For a person who is pressed for time, she sure doesn't know how to cut corners and take the short-cut. What? She wants to make a good impression to the bosses here and to our boss? Or is she really that rigid and unflexible that she really cannot just overlook this one small detail and just close the case? I know..I know..one small detail can mean the difference in everything but when that detail is not required by the guidelines, I'd say fuck it and close case. That's what I'd do. 

This is really not how I had planned to spend my last few days in this company. I wanted to spend it carefree and happy while sitting in my corner back at our office. Not being held hostage in this milk powder company being somebody else's slave. Senpai is letting me go back to office for my last two days and I hate the fact that she has to "let" me go back. Like what? I'm her slave now? She owns me? She has to "let" me go? I cannot resign without her say so? BULLSHIT. 

I get that you have a lot of work to do, I really do understand that. But keeping your colleague here when you know clearly she wants to go and could've gone off FIVE DAYS EARLIER, you fucking LET her go. To hell with "I have a lot of work to do. I don't have enough time. I need help". Do you think I care? I want out. I've made it very clear since the very beginning of this assignment 2 years ago that I don't like this place. Every single year I've been complaining about this milk powder assignment and you were there all those times. You can't even be a little bit human and tell our boss to approve my leave application? Bullocks.

You know what. I don't think I'll cry on Friday. I'm just so done with this place. That woman robbed me 5 days of holiday and I am done. At this point, I'm not even sad that I'm leaving. I'm just so glad. So happy to finally leave that god forsaken place, to never see that stupid milk powder company again and to never have her as my senior again. 

T Minus 3 Days

So today is my 4th last day working, so meaning I have 3 more days to go: Wednesday, Thursday and Friday and while things seems to be all fine and dandy before lunch, I'm really dreading this job as the day stretches out.

For one thing, Leader senpai continues to irritate and annoy me with work related matters. Things that she can very well solve on her own but she insist on keeping me here to take care of them for her. It doesn't take more than a phone call to solve them and yet I have to do it for her. She even has the guts to tell me that the questions that she asked were those she really did not have the answer to and I need to ask the client about it. 

Excuse me? Who's the senior here? Who's the original person in charge here? Definitely not me. No siree. This is pissing me off as well. It feels like I'm here to pick up after her. Wtf is this? She's my senior for crying out loud and she can't do these on her own? I'm not even suppose to be here in the first place. I'm only here because she couldn't finish her work and needed back-up. How dare she make it sound like I'm the one slacking when she was the one who couldn't cope with the work in the first place.

And another thing - she has picked up an annoying habit of texting work related things. "Can you do this this this? Thx" "Can you get that that that? Thx" "Come see me when you reach. Thx" "Ask that person for the info. Thx"

Thx thx thx. Thx your head la thx thx thx -.-

When you see it too often it gets annoying especially when used in a context you hate the most. In this case, it's because it's work related and more importantly, the work is related to the blasted milk power company where I'm currently being held hostage at. It really does feel like I'm a hostage here because no.1. held here against my will, no.2. not allowed to leave this case until she says so. How is it any different from being held hostage? Anyway I'm getting off point. The point is -  is it that much to ask for a person to email to talk about work related things instead of whatsapp? It's not too much to ask now, is it? I'm seriously considering not giving her a byebye note like the one I gave Clover senpai.

Leader senpai, while she is a good friend, I can't stand her as a colleague. Why? Because she's too robotic about work. Everything is standardised and she is too rigid. No room for flexibility whatsoever. It is either her way or if you don't do things her way, she will issue you something called Review Points and you will die answering them. Review points are basically a long list of questions asking you "WHY DIDN'T YOU DO THE THING?". 

They say that you can learn a lot by being in her team. I beg to differ. The only thing I've learnt from her is that I hate her way of working. There's no flexibility, there's no fun and there is no room for self growth. All you do is follow her method until it's ingrained in your head until it's almost second nature to you. Is that personal growth? No, I don't classify it as personal growth. But in a robotic sense maybe yeah, growth - you become more and more robotic. Isn't that great? 

T Minus 4 days

It is now down to 4 days before I officially leave this job and I, for one, am already so done with the job.  It's not so much of "oh I'm tired" but more of a "I'm getting really pissed because my last working day could've been last Friday!"

I was put into the stupid milk powder company again to assist a senior of mine, we shall refer to her as Leader Senpai, because she couldn't finish her work in the allocated time. So I was brought in to help her with one of the areas to audit. And when I told her of wanting to go off early she said something along the lines of "dream on. Like I'll ever let you go off early". And this is pissing me off more and more as the days go by leading up to my last day of work.

She keeps consoling me with "you're going to be paid for the extra days you're here anyway." and truth be told, it's not working. Firstly, the fact that she told me that shows that she really doesn't understand me. It's not so much about the money but more about the wasted annual leaves I've worked so hard to earn. It's more about the rest days, not the money I get for throwing those rest days out. I'm an intrinsic person, you cannot buy me over with material things.

That's basically the main reason why I'm pissed beyond reason. I thought she was my friend because if I were in her shoes, I would let my friend go and have a well-deserved holiday after working for this blasted place for 3 years. Let them go off and enjoy themselves before they have to start work again. I guess I overestimated her ability to be human. She's too focused on her work that she has failed to realise that keeping a person from her holiday is the worse thing you can do, both to a friend and to a colleague. 

She has asked me a few times when do I want to go off. I implied that I knew she wouldn't be so kind as to let me go early but I guess she didn't get the hint. But ya know, if a person repeatedly tells you that she wants to go off early but doesn't really mind staying back, you know that she actually does mind staying back, very much if I may add.

So yea, that's all for the update today. I can't wait till I get to go back to the office. It'll feel like a furlough for sure because I feel like I'm a prisoner here, what with being held back here against my will and all. 

To the future!!!

It’s been a long while hasn’t it? I’m sorry. Work got really crazy and I just lost all motivation and time to even post something. Twitter is a better place because it’s a micro blogging place, I don’t have to string a huge passage together for it to be considered a “post”.

As some of you might know, I resigned from my current workplace. It’s been my only job so far and while I love my work family, I can’t stay any longer. There’s no future here because this is not something I’d want to do in the long run. This is a dead end for me and I have to get out of here while there’s still a good chance for a u-turn.

I’ve already drafted a few goodbye notes, writing them wasn’t exactly fun because I don’t know what to say other than thanking them over and over again and being overly dramatic with lines like “I don’t deserve such good seniors like you guys and probably never will even in a hundred lifetimes”. So yea..I have managed to finish for the girls. For the boys..hmm maybe not lols

Day 13 - 30 day song challenge

Day 13: a song that is a guilty pleasure.

Day 12 - 30 day song challenge

i give no offence to the fans of the band i'm about to name

Day 12: a song from a band you hate

hate is such a strong word, how about "dislike" instead?

Day 10 & 11 - 30 day song challenge

ok i am having a tough time staying committed to this challenge. this is proving to be harder than i thought haha

ok here we go:

Day 10: a song that makes me fall asleep.

well, basically any Rainie Yang song lulls me to sleep, especially during car rides. but i would have to say this is the best:

Day 11: a song from my favourite band

Day 8 & 9 - 30 day song challenge

Ok i think that if it's a weekend,i probably wont be able to post anything.

Day 8 - a song that i know all the words to

Uptown Girl - Weslife

Day 9 - a song that you can dance to

Gee - Girls' Generation

Day 7 - 30 day song challenge

right..truth be told i'm not sure which song to include for today's challenge. but i think i got it


Day 7: a song that reminds you of a certain event

i was listening to this song while studying for SPM previously. so every time i hear this song, it reminds me of my exam days. that's some sort of an event right? XD

Day 6 - 30 day song challenge

i first heard this song when we were smack in the middle of nowhere, in the wilderness, on a four-wheel drive, on the way to a waterfall. so i guess this song reminds me of the journey to the waterfall? Kristie and i were both falling asleep but we still manage to conclude that this song was pretty ok/nice ahaha

Day 6: a song that reminds you of somewhere