In my dreams, in my heart

我的歌声里 (Wǒ de gēshēng lǐ) [You Exist in My Song] by Wanting Qu

Lyrics and translations can be found here

now..if you'll excuse me..i'll be in a corner crying because this song reminds me so much of 친구 because she queued this song on when we went karaoke-ing the first time.

보고 싶다

Spur

In a spur of the moment decision we ninja-ed to the karaoke lounge and partied there for more than four hours, well into the night yesterday. Do I regret the decision when I still have a paper tomorrow? Not a bit. With our impending separation, it is both my honour and pleasure to finally do something resembling a university student and go crazy and carefree once in a while instead of sticking to my stooge image. I need to work on shedding that image, it won’t settle well with me once I start working. Stooges are such easy creatures to take advantage of, after all.

Of course, I don’t mind being a stooge around the people I love and am comfortable around.

Anyway back to the story.

So we ninja-ed there around 8pm+ and we were there till 12:30am or so. And to think I said

“ok..just a couple of hours”

Should’ve known it won’t be just a couple of hours. It was more like a couple of couple of hours, if you get what I’m trying to say haha

But I regret nothing. I haven’t been karaoke-ing with chingoo in a year and it was my first time out with the other two. We had a blast, though I stayed quiet most of the time due my miniscule repertoire in Chinese music. The only Chinese/Taiwanese music I know is those of Rainie Yang and they were really supportive about it! They queued up some of her songs and sang with me for those that I picked out myself. It felt really good because apparently a lot of my friends here don’t like Rainie a lot. The funny part was they queued her older songs up first and I was like

“guys..i don’t know her old songs very well..i listen to the albums after she chopped her hair off more”

Then they put 少年维特的烦恼 on and pointed to the screen

“nah! This one she cut her hair d! you know this right?!” then passed the mic over to me. Gawd I tell you they are too funny.

After that song ended, chingoo commented

“you ar..you know the words but there’s that blank once in a while where you don’t know them.”

You know me so well, chingoo haha so I explained to them I learnt the lyrics my ear and I don’t look at the lyrics pinyin unless I absolutely have to (like how I learnt Japanese and Korean lyrics, listen until it gets in my head). They nodded and commented how smart I am. Lol macam budak kecik kena praised hahaha!!

My friends can sing very well though sometimes we just go “ah..f this shit” and then start yelling like barbarians doing some tribunal ceremony. It was so much fun!

Another funny part was..well..haha chingoo thought it would be funny to put Hebe’s 寂寞寂寞就好 on because I said I only knew those 7 words in the whole song. So while they sang the whole song, they passed the mic to me when those words come up. It was so stupid that it was almost endearing.

So we were there for over four hours and we were still pretty fresh after that so we went back and got out notes and stuff and camped in McD! haha what an experience! While many had done it before, I must admit that was my first. Leave it to this stooge to finally let loose two nights before her last paper.

While we were sitting there discussing and explaining to each other, my only thought was

I’m going to miss you guys so much..probably not going to have this sort of experience anymore anytime soon..chingoo ah ㅠ. ㅠ

By the time we got home and I finally got to bed, it was already 4:30am..man the craziness in one night haha I was not expecting the night to be so happening when I jio-ed them out to dinner in the morning yesterday.

I regret nothing! YOLO!! XDDDD

DNW

Following a countdown that had begun more than a month ago, I am now at the last four days of it. What sort of countdown you may ask? Well, it’s the countdown to the end of my exams. Now you see, not only does this countdown counts to the end of our exams, it also counts to the day we have to say goodbye because we probably won’t see each other anymore after this.

Even though I’ve always looked forward to the end of exams, this is that rare one time that I don’t. I don’t because I don’t want to say goodbye to my friends. I don’t want to wake up one morning and remember that I don’t have classes anymore and I won’t be seeing those jokers anytime soon. I don’t want to be scrolling down my contacts list and suddenly realise I can’t jio them out for a meal like we always do. I don’t want to stop dead on my tracks while walking and realise they’re not staying 5 minutes away anymore. I just don’t want to.

Every single one of them, even the ones I’ve distant myself from, are the reasons why I made it through those harsh years leading up to this moment. Though all of us weren’t particularly close with everybody, we supported each other and together, we went through Foundation, Year 1, Year 2 and now we’re finishing Year 3. I’ve always thought that I could do anything I want by myself but they taught me that that’s not always the case. Uni is a place where you need to rely on each other to pull through. It’s not like high school anymore where even the most anti social kid can survive. In Uni, socialising is everything.

There is one friend I’m going to miss a lot. We literally have been through everything together. Literally all the ups and downs that uni had thrown at us. We made it through. Through some miraculous, divine intervention, the two of us had failed the same subjects, something even till this day I find to be bizarre. Even another friend of ours was considerably shocked when she found out.

“har? You two failed the same subjects? In the same sem?”

“Yup..”

The two of us, well, we get each other really well. We can finish each others’ sentences when one gets stuck while talking. One look and we can tell what the other is going to say. She takes care of me well and as for me, I give her rides to classes, and sometimes I take care of her too haha. She’s like my manager, she helps plan things for me (for us) and I just roll with it cz they are good plans. We tell each other almost everything that comes to mind and I like that a lot. She doesn’t pry too much into my stuff while I do the same. We respect each others’ space and that’s really cool IMHO.

I mentally thank the friend who introduced us back in Year 1 regularly. If it weren’t for her introducing us, I think my uni life would’ve been absolutely miserable, not having known what it’s like to find a dependable, out-going, bubbly friend in a place that is known to be filled with insincere and backstabbing people. Back then after the introduction, she disappeared for a week. Gone for a vacation with her family and when she returned the following week, to be honest I had forgotten all about her and it took a while before I had that Eureka moment about who she was.

Funny story actually haha now that I think about it.  I bumped into her while I was on my way to class. I saw that she was struggling to cycle up a slope so I decided to just pass her quickly. But she almost hit me when her front tyre suddenly turned to the right unsteadily. We avoided the accident, thank goodness. She shouted “sorry!!” while I turned around for a bit and said “oh it’s ok”. It was when we were at the parking lot when she bumped my bike from behind, I looked back and I saw her smiling apologetically at me saying “hey, I’m really sorry about just now” and I answered “oh it’s ok”. At that time, I still haven’t really processed who she was. It wasn’t till later after we left the parking lot that I remembered who she was. I felt really bad for not remembering her.

Then it rolled from there on.

Staring at the countdown, my mind subconsciously wandered to the past and replayed all the silly times we had. Some were just us sitting there laughing out heads off while some were the bunch of us chillaxing over tea and talking like there’s no tomorrow. Probably won’t start missing the rest until end of the year since we’re going to be interning together but I’ll miss her a lot because she’ll be interning back home and we all know once one of us touched down in our hometowns, it would mean contact would be cut off unconsciously.

I’ll miss her a lot. I’m not sure if she will but I will.

some lines of words

"There’s perception and reality. Perception, it’s the compliments of these two streams. There’s sensation, what you feel, and cognition, what you know. You can present the board just reality, facts about your educational background, or you can guide them towards how you want to be perceived. An ambiguous image is open to multiple interpretations on a perceptual level, so, you need to make sure that your essay is unambiguous. Teach them, you know? Teach them that you’re the one that deserves this. Don’t just say ‘I did this one thing’ or ‘I took this one class’, I mean, tell them how you feel about it, how you perceive it. Point them to it, and then fill in the blanks." - Catherine Stark, Bloomington (2010)

“when somebody who’s generally nice gets upset over the smallest thing then it’s probably because they’re fed up of getting walked all over all the time and having their feelings and belongings disregarded by other people so next time someone flips their shit because you took a piece of their food without asking or wore a piece of their clothing without permission you should probably apologise instead of saying they have a short temper or they’re too dramatic” - tumblr

“Those who are heartless once cared too much.”  — Unknown 

"People who reply fast.

You know why they do it? Because they really want to talk to that person. Don’t take forever to reply, that is just a huge turn off. Don’t make them think that you have someone better to talk to. It just sets them off, and it makes them upset. Next time someone replies right after, appreciate that they want to talk to you." - tumblr

“Sometimes you just work, you work, you work, and you have no life, no boyfriend, you have no more friends, no more nothing, you just make movies, and you’re tired, and you don’t know why. Then everybody says, ‘Oh you are so lucky, you are working!’ And you’re like, ‘Oh yeah, oh yeah, it’s so great!’” -  Mélanie Laurent

“i have no interest in small talk tell me about ur childhood and what ur parents are like and how many siblings u have and if u are afraid of death or if u believe in an afterlife and what ur favorite movie is and if u like romantic comedies or horror movies or action movies and what kind of music u like and why and tell me the bands or artists u loved in middle school but are too ashamed to admit to anyone else and” - tumblr

Relax. You will become an adult. You will figure out your career. You will find someone who loves you. You have a whole lifetime; time takes time. The only way to fail at life is to abstain.

— Johanna de Silentio

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

— C.S. Lewis

Interesting

i saw a few people share this on my facebook timeline and i checked it out, and now i think i would like to share it with you guys =]

Seeing a Woman

it's a good read =]

Again..lol

so i took the Jung Typology test..again..haha and i got ISFJ this time round! i think i got ISTJ previously lol anyway, i found this ISFJ 'analysis' and seriously, everything there is so true it's like they wrote it after stalking me or something lolol

here

you can take the test here btw..about 60+ short yes or no questions

Busy Busy

Rainie Yang has another new MV from her latest album, Angel Wings. this song is called 匆忙人生 (cōng máng rén shēng) or Busy Life in English.

The mv is so cute! and i like the message as well. the song is telling us that everybody's life is so hectic and we should not let it go that way. 

and i so agree! people, let's take one day at a time and not get too caught up in things, unless it's finals then cannot be helped la i guess? haha

yesterday was my first paper to kick off the exam season and it sucked big time. i was bullshitting the whole way and i didn't know what i was writing. that's never a good sign...aiyaiyai D:

nevertheless, i'm still alive. /nervous laugh/ and my next paper is on Saturday, a paper that i've failed previously. it'll be my second repeat paper and i'm feeling at least more confident on passing this time round because our coursework marks were pretty nice this time round. previously, it was only about 21/40 so we had to work our butts off but it didn't work so here i am now. lol

so people, don't get too stress k? learn to take a break and be at ease with yourself for a little while.

Pretty Things

I like looking at pretty things.

I think all of us do?

It’s like an unwritten characteristic that we all have.

We like to look at pretty things.

We make faces at grotesque ones.

Small children are drawn to pretty things.

They always want the prettiest to themselves.

They always stick to the pretty people.

They’re not afraid to speak their mind about something which isn’t pretty.

I like looking at pretty things, like I said before.

May it be an object, a picture, a scenery or a person.

There’s nothing wrong with liking to look at pretty things, it just makes you shallow.

Other than that there’s nothing wrong with it right?

Right! Because it’s our nature to do so.

Yes I know I’m generalising the human nature and it’s not a good thing to do.

So let me rephrase,

-ahem-

Almost everybody likes to look at pretty things.

There, that should be sufficient.

So yea..I like looking at pretty things.

Pretty people are top of the list, people like Zac Efron.

I can stare at him the whole day, those blue eyes…/drools/

I can also stare at Mélanie Laurent forever..those green eyes../sighs/

Seriously, ang mohs’ eyes are so pretty.

I can stare at them forever.

They’re so pretty!

Honestly I’m just rambling at the moment.

But the point is,

I like looking at pretty things or pretty people.

Cute boys are such eye candies and so pleasing to the eyes.

But I cannot deny an excellent female specimen of my attention and praise if one were to wander into my 

peripheral vision.

After all,

Girls are such beautiful things to look at.

Cuci mata sekejap won’t hurt anybody, now would it? /smirks/

disclaimer: pictures are credited to their rightful owners. i do not own them.