slap

I am tired. Actually, I am beyond tired. I am tired like all the time and I don’t know why. One of my favourite quote is actually based on being tired about work and not knowing why but everytime when people say “oh you’re so lucky you’re working!”. You can only go “yea..it’s so great!”

So yes, I am tired all the time and I don’t know why.

I would appreciate it if people would avoid having gatherings during weekdays because it is so taxing. You don’t really feel it that night but the next day during office hours, you’re gonna KO for sure. It’s a given that you will. It’s a given that I will.

Given the chance I would just say no but obviously I can’t. It almost feels like an obligation to say yes and go out after work. In the alternate reality I would be this cold person who doesn’t give a shit and say no I’m tired don’t bother me until the weekends. But unfortunately in this reality, I am this really soft hearted person who put everybody else’s feelings before mine and agrees for a hangout, which is getting really annoying by the way. Saying no is just so not my style and I hate it.

I feel like if I don’t say yes to a hangout, I’m a bad person who ignores her friends because she’s too good for them now that she’s working. Honestly, to put it in perspective, I feel that work should not be a reason to decline any hangout invitation but heck it sure is a good one! I use it all the time to escape any possible movie expedition with that all-too-enthusiastic-friend-from-india. Annoying as fuck. (yes tzy just swore. I swear I’m like tolerating/sympathizing every hangout we have had so far)

The worse part about hanging out when you’re dead tired is when the other person knows you’re dead tired but keeps talking anyway. The other worse part is when the other person asks “what time do you need to be back?”and you’re like “no I don’t have a curfew”and he takes it as permission to keep talking. I swear I do not have enough eyes to roll. And! Just the other day, I already told that motor mouth I’m dead tired so no movie but dinner is ok before hand and then when we meet up he was all

“I thought you were just kidding about pizza hut. I really thought we were going to watch a movie. Why don’t you want to watch it?”

I swear, I have never wanted to slap a person that much before. Do I need to justify why I don’t want to watch a movie that everybody says is good? I’m tired. It kills pretty much any mood I have to watch anything, including my anime. (sometimes I get so tired and lazy I just turn the laptop on and listen to music while I stare off into space. It’s surprisingly a good time buster.) like seriously, just because previously we watched X-Men but that was different because:

1.       It was a Friday.

2.       Jennifer Lawrence was in it (that’s more than enough reason for me to watch any movie, regardless of how tired I am I will sit through a JLaw movie because I love that girl to bits)

3.       Ellen Page is in it (that cutie! Can you believe she is like…almost 30? Siao)

4.       Michael Fassbender is in it (gorgeous. Nuff said)

And that time we watched How To Train Your Dragon 2 and Maleficent:

1.       Toothless was too adorable to pass up

2.       Angelina Jolie (nuff said. Was utterly enchanted by her after the first time I watched Maleficent I went on an Angelina Jolie movie marathon)

3.       Pity the feller cause nobody teman dia.

I swear, no more next time. Please slap me when/if you hear I’m hanging out against my will again.

Thank you.