meh

Hi, this is me, I don’t actually have anything to talk about at the moment? But it feels like I haven’t been talking about anything relevant in a while? But then again, who is it to determine whether what I say here is relevant, besides yours truly?

I am so bored right now in the office. Like really, I am. It’s not to say that I have nothing to do. I do, but I don’t want to do it. Why? Because I am a person who runs away from responsibilities, a child who is uncomfortable in all these grown up clothes and tasks. Nope, so not ready to face the world.

Or maybe because I’m tired? I’m really, really tired these few days and don’t you even dare blame it on me going to see my girls last Sunday evening. It had nothing to do with this. I’m just tired of life in general. Like, what is the meaning of life? I don’t know anymore. Not like I knew it before but now I truly do not know. Sleep, wake up, eat, work, eat, sleep and repeat? That’s not life. That’s just being alive. That’s not living.

But that’s the thing, I’m just alive at the moment, I’m not living. I have nothing. I know nothing (if you get it..ba dum tss right back at ya! XD). I’ve fallen into this pathetic and depressing routine that even you’ll feel sorry for me. I’m not going to elaborate further. This is not a soap opera or some greek tragedy.