Thursday, August 29, 2013

[Drabble] Camp Buddies

It was finals season. Soulless bodies walked the empty hallways of the academic blocks like zombies in search of a prey. Some were off to their respective halls to sit for their papers while others were hustling to the library early in the morning to get a good seat and remain there till evening came. It was just another day on campus, nothing had change in the past four years and it will probably never change, a certain blonde mused.

She was on her daily pilgrimage to camp in the library, having gone there religiously since before the exam started to hide in a corner on the third floor and revise for her papers. The library offered her the comfort of silence and air conditioning which she sought after. The environment at her dormitory was insufficient to say the least. The dorm rooms were poorly ventilated and also the freshmen were having the time of their lives despite it being their first finals in the university. She could understand their feelings for first year’s papers especially those in the first semester, were fairly easy and required little study time. The new batch of freshies obviously thought the same and partied well into the night consistently.

She went alone, usually. She preferred it that way. She would only think of her friends who wanted to tag along as hindrances. They weren’t there to study, that she knew very well. The air conditioning there was a welcome relief from their dorm rooms. Besides, she could only study properly if everything was dead quiet. It was the only way to get her hyper active mind to calm down. Meditating before starting didn’t work, she just fell asleep. So you could say that going to the library was a last, ditch effort to get herself to study.

Having gone consistently for the past few days, she was pretty sure the librarians could recognise her by now and maybe a few other library regulars like one of her classmates whom she spotted on the first day she started to camped there. It was Ty Kim, a quiet yet joyful character in her class. If memory served, Ty had a selected group of friend of about three to four people, much like herself and he was alone, too. They were fairly well acquainted with each other as they were in the same course. They had many classes together in the course of three years. Ty greeted her with a nod from his seat while she waved back before disappearing into her corner.

While she was buried under her pile of notes, she didn’t notice that it was almost 2pm and she hadn’t had lunch yet. It was only when she paused to check the time did she realise how hungry she was. Despite her growling stomach, she was quite reluctant to eat because she didn’t want to eat alone. It made her feel pathetic in a way, having to eat alone while everybody else was with their friends. In sheer desperation, and also just to try her luck, she texted Ty asking if she had lunch yet; and hoped for the best. Ten minutes later, a reply came

‘No, not yet..you too? wanna go grab lunch?’

‘Sure =]’

They had lunch in the cafeteria two blocks away from the library. To Jessica’s surprise, Ty turned out to be a very chatty person and she enjoyed listening to the stories that he told while they ate. After lunch they returned to their seats in the library and a few hours later when dusk came knocking, they left with an unspoken promise to meet again the next day. And the few days that followed took a similar pattern. Ty and Jessica talked during lunch that week. Other than lunch, they rarely talk to each other. Jessica was hidden in her corner while Ty preferred a seat closer to the stairs. They were on opposite sides of the floor.

It seemed like a weird arrangement between two supposed friends but it was how they worked. Every morning a nod as a greeting and every dusk, a wave goodbye as a promise to meet the next day. Jessica had never looked forward to going to the library that much.

When Thursday came, something was off. Jessica had declined lunch with the excuse of not being hungry. A few moments of silence later saw her in tears.

“Do you remember when I told you about my cat?” she asked in the steadiest voice she could manage.

“Yea, what..happened??”

“He..died..yesterday. My cousin found him, well, his carcass. She thinks he was knocked over, there was a pool of blood. But when I got home, the body was gone…”

“Oh..I’m so sorry…”

Ty wanted to stay back with her but she told him to go eat instead.

“You sure? Wanna just..go get a drink?”

“Yes, I’m sure..go..it’s late and you must be hungry…”

“Aren’t you?”

“No, I had a heavy breakfast…really..go..I’m ok..”

When Ty had returned from lunch, Jessica was nowhere to be seen. He figured she must’ve gone to lunch since her things were still on the table. Glancing around, he quickly went to his seat and grabbed his things and settled down on the table next to Jessica’s.

A faint smile played across Jessica’s lips when she returned to find a half asleep Ty in her corner. He quickly woke up and pretended to be giving his notes full attention when Jessica had dragged the chair out on purpose. Ty flashed her a cheeky smile and cleared his throat, returning his attention to the notes while Jessica snickered. The hours passed with the two of them sitting in silence, each enjoying the presence of the other, not wanting to break the comfortable silence. Apparently the silence was too comfortable and Ty fell asleep again.

Jessica was nowhere to be seen again when he had woken up. Her things were still there but she did not reappear even after half an hour. Far too long a time for her to be in the bathroom, Ty mused, a phone call would be possible though, she continued her musing. After a few more minutes of waiting, he went home.

---

“Hey….”

“Hey! What’s up?”

“Yea..sorry I lost track of time just now. I was meeting with my supervisor and…”

“It’s ok, totally fine”

“Did you just reach home?”

“Oh..no actually..I left about an hour ago..”

“I'm sorry, I just got back and I saw your note. It was very sweet, thank you..”

“You’re welcome..haha..”

“So..see you tomorrow, maybe?”

“Sure..see you tomorrow..”

---

Hey sweet sugar cakes XD

Where were you? I didn’t want to leave without saying goodbye so..yea…haha

Bye bye!

p/s: thank you for being my lunch buddy for the past few days =]

see you tomorrow maybe? :D


love,

you-know-who :D

Best Day..literally!!

Today started out really normal, but it sure turned out to be one of the best days this year! Even better than that day last week! Haha I was in a really good mood one of the days last week; can’t remember which day but it was the day Rock n Roll’s MV came out. I was really happy because I had a new song that was really, really good to add to my playlist. I ended up looping that song the whole day and I’m looping it now as I type.

So this morning, as usual, woke up and got ready and headed to campus to camp in the library (I think that’s why the word ‘campus’ has the word ‘camp’ in it lol). Anyway, picked a seat facing the wall and got settled down. Then I took a nap around a little bit after noon and was woken up by a lunch invite from a friend who was also camping in the library but I couldn’t find her. Being a person who almost never turn down a makan invite, naturally, I accepted and we went off to the cafeteria for lunch.

Then I saw a friend that I haven’t seen in months and it was so good to see her again. She used to be the bartender at my favourite café and she went back home a few months ago but she was back for the day today for whatever reason it was. She was helping out in the cafeteria after the café closed (cz the boss switched to managing a stall in our cafeteria instead) previously. Seriously, it was really good to see her again and I got a hug too! Haha hugs are nice! It was a bear hug, too! Haha saw her when I approached the stall and quickly set my stuff (phone, water bottle etc) onto the nearest table, just in time before she tackled me into that bear hug.

We ended up spending a longer time than intended for our lunch break listening to the ex-bartender talk and she even gave us some advices for the future. She said, since I’m so uncertain/undecided on what to do after graduation, I should go on a working holiday or just a trip somewhere overseas to do some soul searching. I think I’ll do that! I’ve always wanted to do soul searching since, well, I don’t know what I am or who I am yet. Haha!

And then after lunch, I got a call from another friend who I also haven’t seen in months that she was back for the day for her internship presentation! She needed to get her textbooks that she parked in my room a few months back and shifted them to her coursemate’s room for the time being. Helped her out a bit in burning the report into a CD and we talked a bit. It was really nice to talk to/see her again. You know, the two of us can talk for hours non-stop. Seriously, I’m not joking. We can talk and talk and talk and talk and I didn’t think for one second before I started college that I can find a friend like her! Like for serious, we can talk forever if nothing interrupts us. Our record is 2 hours nearing 3 lol. So yea, she was back and in a fortunate turn of events, we had dinner together too! Haha but it didn’t last long because she needed to rush back to KL to work tomorrow. In all the rush, she still had time to tease me because, I don’t know why, she will always have a longer break than me. In the sense that she will always end her exams earlier than me and even now, she will end her internship four days before I end my exams. iSads.

Then, the biggest joke (or maybe jokes) ever today is that the coursework marks for two of my subjects were released and I’m like..just staring at the monitor in disbelief. In one of the subjects, in a midterm that I was so sure I would fail, I did pretty well. Well, the pdf file was removed from the server due to “slight duplication in t3 & t4” but I’m pretty sure my score won’t be affected cz I’m in t6 haha! And in another subject that I’m super sure I failed the midterm, the coursework marks turned out not bad! Not bad at all!! I would like to thank our lecturer for being super lenient while marking our report cz obviously our midterms all sucked pretty bad.

After dinner I watched Now You See Me and that movie is so good!! Super duper, sibeh, chincha good!! Seriously you guys have to go watch it! I love this sort of movies! A bit of mystery, a bit of action, a super awesome car chase scene (which, if I may add, is way better than the car chase scene in Fast & Furious 6) and most importantly, a good script and a good cast! The casting for the movie is just perfect! Each fit the role so well and the script is really, really good and the cg effects was top notch too!! Watching this movie was like, the most perfect way to end is almost perfect day. Like seriously =]

oh..and this is Rock n Roll mv if you guys haven't checked it out yet haha honestly i don't understand the mv at all but who cares?! the song is awesome!! long live Avril Lavigne!!



oh..and i saw the most gorgeous pair of eyes today too!

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

[Drabble] Match

When Jessica was younger, she understood that she was just another match in the box. Each sibling had the same cascading blonde locks; the same pair of brown eyes, the same oval face and well, you get the picture.

She was the youngest out of the five sisters, and also the one who protested the most when their parents handed them matching clothes to wear during the holiday seasons in their earlier years. The sisters were also almost identical in height, almost being the key word. If you arranged the five in accordance to height, Jessica would probably be somewhere in the middle, where she always had been.

There was nothing she could do to make things better for herself, unfortunately. In school, she was always being confused by her schoolmates. Her sister’s friend would come up to her and pat her back and she always had to apologise for being the wrong sibling. Jessica was tired of all it. Even if she wore something different, people would still mistaken her for somebody else. Relatives, friends, teachers, the folks around the neighbourhood, the list would never end. Beside her parents, nobody could tell her apart from the rest of her sisters, even then they might let another slip by mistake.

When she was nine, her father had a job transfer to another state and so the whole family went along. For Jessica, it made no difference. Pretty soon everything would be just the way it was. She would be mistaken for one of her sisters again, even more so because they would be in a new environment where people hadn’t known them for years. She silently prayed and hoped that her new neighbours would at least make an effort to identify the five siblings.

The first day of class in her new school, her new classmates were thrilled to have twins in their class. Jessica felt as though she was an exhibit on display by the way they gawked at the two of them. Her sister, on the other hand, was enjoying the attention. The five of them were split into two classes; she was with her oldest sister while the rest were in the neighbouring class. They caused quite a commotion during their first day, it was not every day you see five identical people walking around the hallways.

An incident a few days later would forever be etched into her mind in the years to come. It was science period and everybody had to go to the lab for it. She took the first vacant seat she saw when she entered the room ad settled down while her sister took the seat beside hers. She kept her gaze focused on the black board in front and didn’t notice a figure walking up to her until she felt a few taps on her shoulder.

“That’s my seat, Jessica. But since you’re new, I’ll let you have it for today. I’d like it back for the next class.”

Jessica was stunned. Nobody, except her parents, had been able to confidently call her by her name before. There was always hesitation when people called her by her name because they didn’t know which twin she was.

“Oh..I’m sorry, I didn’t know. Here you can have it back.” She offered but was declined.

“It’s fine, there’s no seating plan actually so we can sit wherever we want but I’m familiar with that seat, that’s all. No big.”

“Oh..uhm..thank you?”

“You’re welcome, but I’d still like it back next time though..”

“Of course..” the figure walked away and Jessica slumped onto the chair. Her sister had declined to comment but was busy reading her new story book.

Just as she had settled, another tap came from behind.

“Hey, you know..he almost never gives that seat to anybody..that’s his favourite seat”

“Really? But he said I can have it for this class though..” Jessica trailed off

“Who knows? Maybe he can be nice after all” the kid behind her shrugged.

“Be nice? Why? He isn’t nice?”

"Not really..he.."

Before her classmate could explain further, their teacher had entered the lab and signalled the start of the class. Jessica quickly turned back around facing front to avoid being scolded in her first lesson. She paid no attention in that class, her mind was too busy repeating a line like a broken record.

He said my name right the first time.

End.


A/N: something short i had to get out from my systems

ok.....so...

So I’m back in Kampar and..oh gosh I really don’t know how to say this..er..ok..ok..

I saw, probably, the most gorgeous looking guy EVER!!

And..he actually talked to me!!

Gyah!!!!!! /runs and hide/

Monday, August 26, 2013

Das beautiful

an unnie of mine linked this on Twitter not too long ago and i read it, obviously and i wanted to share it with you guys. It's really well written and somehow..relate-able IMHO...what do you guys think? =]

For When You Think No One Will Love You

my personal favourite is the last line

Saturday, August 24, 2013

Testing testing

Ayo! Testing testing! Haha i downloaded the blogger app and am now trying it out by posting his from my phone lol so i'm guessing it works? Haha awesomeness!! Then i can blog anytime anywhere in the future lol but using this method would also mean more typos because i am just notoriously good at typoing when i'm using the phone XD

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Intro or Extro?

Wow two posts in one day! Lol I haven’t done that in a very long time now have I?

Well, I found THIS post and I wanted to share it out with you guys.

Finish reading? So now here’s the question: are you an introvert? I now know that I am after reading that list. Pretty impressive list don’t you think so? I totally agree with it. maybe some of you extroverts don’t but it’s ok..

i’ve picked out some points that applies to me best from the 23:

2: you go to parties, but not to meet people

“ At a party, most introverts would rather spend time with people they already know and feel comfortable around.”

That there is so true. It’s a huge burden to have to mingle with everybody, which was why I was rather reluctant to attend the reunion a few weeks back. I know it was not to “meet new people” since we were all classmates before but the thought of having to mingle was the one that threw me off. Personally, I would prefer a small little gathering of about ten. That would suffice for me. Needless to say I went for that reunion and true enough to the above sentence, I ended up talking with three people the whole night, out of the 20 something that came.

3: you often feel alone in a crowd

 "We might let friends or activities pick us, rather than extending our own invitations." Dembling

That is so true..really, when in a crowd, we really would just like to keep to ourselves and mind out own business. I myself would rather not reach out or go out of my way to participate but if somebody were to pull me into an activity, I would most likely participate. It’s..rather..terrifying really..it really is..

6: you’re easily distracted

Hahahahaha omg I cannot tell you how much this point applies to me lololol let’s face it guys, I get distracted super easily

7: downtime doesn’t feel unproductive to you

Omg yes! I super love downtime, or as I like to call it: Me time.

“One of the most fundamental characteristics of introverts is that they need time alone to recharge their batteries.”

Yup yup! Couldn’t agree more. Seriously, I love my time alone. I get to do whatever I want. You can leave me home alone for an entire day and I’ll never be restless.

10: you start to shut down after you’ve been active for too long

Like seriously, especially if I’m suddenly loaded with too many things to do. I just shut down, like that /snaps fingers/ I’ll be like, just sitting there staring off into space or just minding my business, not talking unless directly spoken to or sometimes, I don’t even care what people beside me are talking about, I just zone out and stare off into space.

11 -> 16

All true.

Well for 11, not so much as “being in a relationship” but all of my close friends are hyper extroverts which is why I enjoy their company a lot. They do all the hyper and all the talking while I can just chill and be comfortable.

21: You’ve been told to “come out of your shell.”

I’ve never actually been told that but I have been told that I need to get out of my comfort zone, food wise, and try new things. Actually the exact words are

“ah girl ah..you need to find somebody who can get you out from your comfort zone and also help you finish the stuff that you don’t like on your plate, like these onions”

Yup..lol

22: you are a writer

Hahahahahaha

23: you alternate between phases of work and solitude and periods of social activity

Yup yup. Like in one of the points above, I really do need some me time to recharge. Even if it’s like just one or two hours at night before I go to bed, it’s enough. Then I’m as good as new the next day to play and stuff haha

I don't know why, but I'm really happy to find out that I'm an introvert at heart. It feels really good to come to that realisation that you are not what you have always thought you are. It's like, you've found a piece of yourself and I've been in a really good mood the whole day so this just adds up to the good mood points =]

So..what are you guys like? Any points that applies to you guys? =]

Rants and Eye Contact

You just seem like a person who listens very well.

A friend of mine told me that when I told her that people seem to like to pour their rants to me. We had lunch in the cafeteria today, or actually I had lunch while she accompanied me, and the stall’s boss came and chat with us. He’s like our friend now haha he thought me friend’s sister ERT back in school so we’re quite well acquainted (damn his food is super awesome). He was talking about the problems that came up with the restaurant he’s partnering in Ipoh and boy..was it a long rant. If I didn’t get that phone call and leave early he would’ve continued talking.

It has happened many times before, people would just start talking and somehow I would be the only one left there to listen. I don’t mind listening, really. It feels nice to be able to be there for that person, even if it’s just me sitting there and listening to them rant. It feels nice. I obviously cannot do anything to help with whatever they’re rambling about but at least I can listen and let them vent. I think that helps in a way. People can release a bit of frustration or whatever by venting right? So, in a way I am helping. In a way…right? Hahaha

Or if that person has a story to tell or something. Once during Chinese New Year, I asked my uncle about internship and which/what type of company I should go to and oh my goodness, I was stuck there listening to him for almost an hour I tell you. I didn’t mind it because I was the one who started the conversation in the first place so I just let him talk, nodding and giving responses when necessary. I think I can add that to my short list of skills: Able to act like I’m paying attention and giving appropriate responses at appropriate times. A good skill to have, no?

People usually think I’m paying attention to what they say because I maintain eye contact with them so they keep talking and talking and talking when I have no idea what they’re talking about. Of course, I use that with discretion, I don’t pretend all the time. Sometimes I really am interested in what the other person has to say so I pay attention for real. So that’s where/how I learnt that eye contact is very important in any conversation. I’ve also learnt that using that on lecturers during class is super effective in not getting the lecturer to pick you to answer questions. It works I tell you! It really works. Just maintain eye contact with the lecturer and he/she will never ask you to answer questions. Seriously, go try it. They never will because they always aim at those who are trying to siam XD

Though..I have to say I got caught once. The lecturer called me to answer and I said I didn’t know.

“You’re not paying attention, are you? Your mind was someplace else, right?”

“Yes..”

“Good, at least you’re honest”

Hehehe  ok so it doesn’t really work all the time but it does most  of the time haha! But seriously, go try it out and see



Thursday, August 15, 2013

Catch My Breath


thank you, that's like one of the most motivating thing anybody has ever said to me about writing.

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Itching

I want to write something but I don’t know what to write. I want to write another story but my mind cannot churn out a plot strong enough to stand on its own as a one shot. I want to write about last night’s events but I was not conscious enough nor was I aware enough of the things going on beyond my peripheral vision to say anything about it.

I have a plot in my head but I don’t know how to start it. I suppose that would go to my growing folder of unfinished stories. You’d be surprised at how big the folder is. Each Word file is only about two pages long and then I stop writing.

I want to write something new. I want to present you guys something new. Writing the same boring things day in and out is boring and I’m sure you guys are getting tired of reading the same boring shit every time. I want, desperately, to impress a person who has long ago marked my writing as boring. But I’m too big of a coward to do so.

I envy those who have spun countless of words effortlessly and are capable of creating plot twists to rival that of those Taiwanese Hokkien dramas. Somebody once told me that the “wow” factor in writing comes from experience. But I beg to differ. The “wow” factor obviously comes from one’s command in the language and how broad one’s vocabulary bank is.

Mine isn’t very big at all. I pick up one or two words once in a while in my reading. I spend hours a day reading, chapter after chapter. I’ve been reading non-stop since SPM was over. I’ve exhausted my initial story bank and have moved on to numerous titles, trying to satisfy my hunger for good and well written stories. But they’re hard to find. Even harder that looking for a parking spot last night.


Anyway, it seems this rant is long enough so I shall stop. At least I’ve written something. I think I’m having a “typing withdrawal”, if there’s even anything like that. I like to type and after so much of typing I’ve done this semester, to suddenly stop because all my assignments are done, I guess my fingers are just itching for hammer the keys like I always do when I type. My keyboard has taken a lot of abuse since I bought it. don’t worry man /sayangs laptop/ just wait till the year is over and I’ll let you retire.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

MV



Rainie Yang's new mv is out!!!! ;LKSAJ;DJHKJDHASKLJFHLKAJSHFKJHADSJHASFGD

oh the excitement!!!!!!

i've been waiting for this ever since her photo shooting bts video from Germany was uploaded a few weeks ago and now it's out!!!

what can i say besides this mv is so Rainie?!! this is so Yang Chenglin seriously hahahaha it reminds me a lot of her Longing For mv, which IMHO is another uber awesome song that i highly recommend you guys checking out (which you can do so here) see i so nice right some more provide link for you all XDDDD sorry i'm a bit delirious now hahahahaha

so in my perspective, i think that the theme of this music video is about how love exists in the midst of chaos and destruction. in the mv we see three couples kissing in three different settings. one were being chased by soldiers, the other were in the middle of a mini mart robbery while the last were in the middle of a demolition of an old building. i kinda like that theme. it's like telling you not to give up because if you look properly, love is there, regardless the situation you're in.

i've also taken the liberty to search for the English translations of the lyrics for this song. i found one but it isn't very well translated but it'll do for now. better translations usually surface when the physical album is released, which isn't for another two weeks.

you can check it out here

:DDDDD now excuse me while i replay the mv over and over XDD