Of beaches and seafood

The beach, the point of fascination of so many people in this world. To be very honest, you'd think having grown up almost directly by the sea i would appreciate that vast body of salty water more but no, unfortunately. I do not. Which is why i dont understand why is it that people would actually want to go to the beach, get all sandy and sticky from the sea breeze just for fun. It makes no sense to me whatsoever to be honest.

A trip to the beach is a topic that i have noticed to always be present during discussion for a quick getaway. Recently, a few of my uni friends are planning one for this saturday (i'm not going if you're wondering..i got lots of things to do). So i told them, in a very gentle way that i'm not up for it:

"malas wanna go laaa"

And they replied

"go play also malas tsk tsk.."

Excuse me? Of course i'm feeling malas for a trip like this. If it's a trip down south to see chingoo it would be a completely different story. I live by the sea, i do not have that city kid's facination for the beach. Honestly those poor unfortunate city souls who probably have spent less than a month in their whole life time by the sea. You poor souls indeed.

And having lived nowhere near water must have deprived those poor things of fresh seafood, too. Why, you should've seen how their eyes lit up at the mention of seafood. Another one of those things that i'll never understand. Why, where i come from, seafood was practically as staple as chicken. We can have seafood any time of the day, any day of the week! It's practically an all-you-can-eat seafood buffet back in my hometown. Those poor souls have to practically make an effort to plan a trip to some kampung like Bagan Hailam in Port Klang to taste fresh seafood. And it's not as cheap as ours either.

Our seafood is cheap and awesome. Their so called seafood is expensive and so not awesome. There is a big difference. Usually if i ended up going for a meal like that, i'll sit back and eat the more normal food like chicken and eggs while letting them eat the expensive stuff. And speaking of which, they're so not willing to spend on good fish. I was like

"guys..what gives? You're at a seafood restaurant and you dont order a decent fish but insted some cheapo fish/fish fillet? Then what's the point?"

Like seriously, this is what i like to call

"too cheap for the good stuff, too expensive for the cheap stuff"

It's like..have you guys ever experienced that moment where you're like

"guys, i live by the sea, you cannot tempt me with seafood" ??

Cz i get that a lot. People like to show off their crabs and prawns and i'm like just

"dude....ㅡ.ㅡ"

Haizzz

I will never understand the fascination of the beach and seafood.

Free

Let’s forget about work, stress and being tired for a while. I think my posts these few days/weeks have been nothing but work, stress and being tired. So let us push that all aside and talk about something else, something more lighthearted. (and no, I’m not going to talk about the kns either.)

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I don’t really know what to talk about actually, because my life at the moment is pretty mundane and I’ve pretty much lost any ounce of “zest for life” I have left after uni ended. I’m like what? 22? I should be out there being happy, free, confused and lonely at the same time and in the best way. But I have this thing called a job and it can tie a person down and prevent one from being happy, free, confused and lonely.

***

I wanna go for a soul searching trip. I think one of those trips is long overdue. Ever since watching Honey and Clover all those years ago, I’ve always dreamt of just wondering off on my own one day and go soul searching. It’ll be fun, no? just you and the world. Once you see how big the world is, you’ll find yourself. At least, that’s what I think is the case. It may or may not be that way. I really would like to do it one day. Just pack up and leave on impulse, go travelling and see the world and maybe have a fling or two. Who knows?  XD

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I’m not that all obsessed about finding my significant other at the moment, questions about when I want to find one are bound to pop up every now and then. It’s a standard question, practically unavoidable when you’re at this age and still single. Honestly, would people just take a look around? I have friends who are a gazillion times more attractive than I am who are still single and very much available, what leaves me? Have you seen them? Friend’s uni friend’s coo over them. I’m very much satisfied with being the background. Nothing to see  here, please move on. Only a weirdo here, keep moving. Don’t stare. It’s rude.

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after work

so, besides being bloody tired at the moment, i do feel better, just not as awake as i would like to be. honestly i think i could do with a 15-hour sleep. yes, i think it would do me good.

but on the side note: i've forgotten how is it like to look forward to "after work" in a long while. i think it's because i don't have anything pending to watch and now i do! i'm really happy about it. i've recently downloaded an anime series and it is hilarious, the perfect no-brainer type of show to watch after a long day at work (even more so if i'm in the same team as the kns). it's relaxing.

and also, recently i've been stocking up n movies again. though they're not really those no-brainer type of movies but i'm sure i can handle whatever heavy drama they have installed for movie watchers. honestly, after finishing oitnb i sort of lost that movie/series watching drive but i think it's back so i'm good haha!

my friend commented yesterday:

"You must be really tired.."

"How you know?"

"Your double eye lids are really obvious today"

haha but she said i look better today so all is well i suppose? i have a really weird dream yesterday. not that i can recall everything but i do remember the Jolie-Pitt family being in it. must be that super adorable Maleficent btw video i watched before bed last night. 

work

i am so bloody tired right now. (though i really should be working now but i need a slight break at the moment)

i've been running up and down this client's place and it is so tiring. and i'm getting increasingly frustrated at myself for not being able to bring out what i really mean to the clients. my teacher once said:

"she has the command of the language, but she doesn't know how to use it"

and i've always thought that he was absolutely correct.

anyway, i'm just so bloody tired right now and i'm guessing because i'm already one years old in this company, my senior's expectations on me are obviously higher now and so they expect me to know what they're talking about and i do. it's just that i'm having a bit of trouble conveying that to the clients, which has always been a problem ever since the beginning. /cries a river/

and that manager of mine is not making things easier for us. she keeps nagging us to submit our paperwork when the team leader already explain to her entah berape kali dah that it is not practical for this particular case because the officers are always MIA we don't have a lot of things to write in the paperwork also..ugh..that woman -.-

so yea...consider this a status report from yours truly. i'm so bloody tired right now i just wanna crawl into a hole and hide and sleep